And then I told her to close her eyes. Part 1

Wakes up. Looks around. The darkness blinds him. He hears a faint rhythm that begins to become clearer and clearer. Almost unconsciously he removes the headphone from his ear, the only device that seems to help him sleep soundly and help him escape from the hustle and bustle of everyday life. As he begins to orient himself to his surroundings, he scans the room for the familiar gleam of moonlight through the break in the shades. It shines on the clock that would give him a sense of time and direction. After blindly staring at the hands of the clock he realized that it was way too early for him to be awake, and that he was wasting his own valuable sleeping time by staying awake. He feels around for the pillow, his vehicle back into Dreamland. Closing his eyes he let out a satisfying sigh of relief and security. In the morning he would have to go out into the world, regardless of how safe he felt within the constraints of his own bed. It was as if in his slumber nothing could go wrong. Not a soul could do him harm in his own dominion. He realized that he will always find comfort in the familiar: the safest place he had known.

You only see what I let you see, nothing less and nothing more.

It starts with a mumble like... uh.
And the letters come together like I'm opening a letter
From a place that I've never been.
Written to myself from myself like a message in a bottle.
Or a capsule in time, an immaculate find.
Feeling like a mine who could finally speak his mind.
Everything I want to say - my dreams and insecurities.
Everything I want to be - music is a part of me, it floats through my arteries and speaks from the heart of me.
Sometimes it's hard for me to open up, honestly.
And honestly that's the part of me that really wants a part of you.

Just hear what I'm saying like Socrates, because I know a little something about life - and what it means to ME.

Keep your eyes focused on the mercury skies.
And say what you need to say.

- inspired by Say - John Mayer ft. Oh! So Spectacular.

Barack Obama

some of the people i talk to can be very racist.. or at least thats how i deem it. i bet you i'm going to get a lot of stupid people asking me questions like.. "how do you feel about the president being black" like it's a legit question.. but they don't care, they're just being stupid. i think the fact that i was very active in this election made me slightly arrogant when it comes to people's involvement in politics and this election. that's why i asked people the question, "how does barack obama's election change your life" because i think it's really hypocritical that weeks ago some people say they don't know and they don't care but then they're like "yaey he's president woo hoo" and the fact that they say they "don't know".. affirms my assumption that they really don't care. but it's not just them personally.. like i asked a few people and they're all like.. "yaey obama.. he's black woo hoo.. we won" and they don't really know what its all about.. like obama went through way more than that.. so that he could only be remembered as "the first black president" he doesn't want to be JUST that. in MY opinion. and what does it mean to me that he won? and how does it change my life? well i think it undoubtedly changes americas outlook on the cultural differences in this country. being that he is HALF BLACK AND HALF WHITE.. he stands as a good sample of the diversity that we are blessed with in this country. and he also epitomizes the american dream. and he's living proof that indeed this is the land of opportunity and that anyone can do anything in this country.. and no matter how cliche it sounds... they can do w/e they put their minds to. and THAT'S what this election means to me. it changes the world i live in.. and makes people like me.. those of color.. have some kind of hope in our own lives that we too.. can be barack obamas. ambassadors of our race, and rise above cultural barriers to become more than what anyone could fathom. but that's how i think. :)

The Public and Sarah Palin

i like to sit back and observe the world around me. that's what compelled me to go around and ask people "what do you think about sarah palin" and document their responses. the follow up question was "how would you feel about having her in the oval office?" boy is this going to be fun. a little background on the people i asked. they're all female non-voters with ages ranging 14 to 19 from all over the country.

- I don't know ... I don't really know anything about her. I don't pay much attention to politics honestly. I think it would be cool to have a woman in that position..
- Who's that? She's a bxtch. Lol She looks young though... But, I don't like republicans. Well I don't think she's good enough. Didn't se say she was against gay people getting married?? I think they have as much rights as us straight people do.
- I think shes slick and conniving. I don't even know what I would do but like I said she's so sneaky..and I think she got lucky with this nomination.
- who the heck is that? umm sweety I don't watch that stuff I don't know nothing about her but is she like the first woman to be a republican vice president?
- I really don't kno I'm not much into votin n everything.. I wouldn't mind [having her in the oval office.]
- I don't like her.. idkk I wouldn't want her there. I don't really like any of da candidates
- She's a goos speaker & she's smart but she's not ready to be vice president. She doesn't have that much experience like she doesn't know. I wouldn't like it but I wouldn't stress it. She's still not a bad person & she's a strong woman
- iono really. iono.
- I don't like her lol I'd hate it
- I dont like her
- I BELIEVE DAT SHE IS NOT GUD 4 THE U.S...SHE DIDN'T HAVE A GUD IMPRESSION ON A LOT OF PPL...SHE SUX... I dnt want her anywhere in the political area...she shud stick 2 teachin and given shout outs in canada
- Wh0s that. 00h idk isnt she vice presidental candidate 4 macain.. ummmmm i ratha hav sum type of lady in office then frikkin mccain so im all for her. {i then told her that she's on mccain's ticket.} She sucks
- Honestly I don't think shes a competent vice presidential candidate &it scares me a candidate for presidency would make a decision so dangerous just 2 get vots. I would be worried
- idk shesz iightsz i dont like any of our candidatesz xcept obama even tho he is jepordizin him & his famsz ju actually tink i follow wah those 2 do no idk wah they viewsz or campaignsz r for jus obama...
- she`s the typical white woman . i`d feel upset, but what can i do about it .
- who's that?? O that sarah..ummm do i have to answer this??
- which 1 is that 1 the one on obamaz side?!..ahh soo then she's the 1 from alaska? I don't like her! she never knoo wat she talkinq about I watched one of the debates &+ she was like I may not answer ur questions as u or the people may wanna hear but I answer them to the best of my knowledge.
- I hate her. She's so stupid. I wouldn't be in the states. I'd move to europe.
- well im democrat all da way so i rly dont care bout her. i wouldnt feel safe cuz she is gunna turn dis country upside down she has some experience buh i dont feel like shes ready to run a whole country.

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Anterior Cruciate Ligament

or better known as the ACL. i can almost guarantee that this picture is as close to my real right knee xray as can get. on January 21st i tore my ACL. the diagnosis was a "bruised knee" haa! nope, when i got that MRI i did get the bad news that i had a torn ACL, and possibly tore one or both of my menisci. (those horseshoe shaped things on either side of the tear.) today is the third time after the original injury that i repeated the injury, perhaps tearing it even more. by my first MRI, the doctor said that it may have been partially torn but either way i would have to undergo reconstructive surgery to place a faux ACL, in layman's terms- a strip of ligament from the other huge ligament in the knee, and 9 to 12 months of rehab to make the reconstructed ligament back to almost 100% because it would be used to functioning as the ACL. anywaayy. the first time i messed it up, i was reenacting my friend's dodging of a flung bottle cap. it popped lightly out and back in. (because the ACL is what holds the knee in place from going directions it's not supposed to go.) the second time was when i was playing volleyball (bad idea) and i kinda landed wrong. mucho pain. today was probably the worse since the real thing. playing basketball (my sport that i legitimately haven't played in more than a year) and after a good 30 minutes of playing, was the instant that i am very much regretting right now. i currently am running on two advils to numb the pain a whole lot, and my knee is on ice as we speak.

note to self: please stop hurting yourself.

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I'm proud to announce my first installment to the Featured Videos category. Enjoy!



This is such a great video done by some of my friends over at the YVP. I was honored to have interacted with this program in the past and hope that through YouthAction and onward I can continue. They did a really good job with this message and this entire video, and I'm SO JEALOUS that YouthAction did not make a video like this already, but we'll get on it, I promise you.

As for the YVP, KEEP IT UP!! I'm so gassed right now, I watched the video like, "I know him, I know her!" It's really cool what you guys are doing, and programs like ours should work together more to make our very strong message heard.

an online journal?

i'm an avid blogger. there, i said it. my firefox is filled with bookmarks to all kinds of blogs, including that of my good friend lisa. so i've been thinking for a long time, whether i should make a blog or not. so a while ago i made one. i felt like it wasnt good enough because people werent looking at it. then i just decided that, i'll use this more as a journal.

an online journal? what kinda sick idea is that? why would someone put their business online? i really dont care. sounds blunt but hey, it's true. there's nothing to hide. my life is like an open book. people know me that i dont even know that they know me. trust me. that makes me GOL (giggle out loud). in the words of Nero, "my mind is an abyss, you're bound to get trapped."

some of these may be hard to swallow, but just let it marinate.
get it? got it? good.